the report is nothing to report...

No news on the adoption front. Which makes me rethink the whole "no news is good news" theory.

Our home study should be done this week or next week at the latest. What does that mean? When our home study is done, three things happen...
1. We submit it to our government for their approval. (We have to have US approval before we can submit for approval to the Ethiopian government.)
2. We get Gladney approval which means we will "officially" be a part of Gladney's Ethiopia Program. (Gladney is our adoption agency.)
3. We can start applying for a few adoption grants that are available.

The above paragraph makes me want to yawn!!! Oh my goodness!!! Does not everyone understand how unbelievably excited we are??? Could you work a little faster please???

I am joking.... At the beginning of our adoption process, I completely understood how long of a process this was going to be, but then something happened. I can't exactly say what or when it was, but all of a sudden the reality of getting a baby boy has hit.

It is like when you go from being in a daze because you just found out you are pregnant to "oh my gosh I am going to have a baby!"

We have a lot longer than nine months to wait though.

Today, I found myself alone at Target with no kids and no time limit. I am pretty sure that has never happened to me before. I let myself wander to the baby department, which I have not yet done since we started our adoption. I looked at bouncy seats, strollers, pack'n'plays, blankets, crib sheets, and clothes. I was on the verge of losing my mind and putting it all in my cart. Of all things, a crib sheet got me. I had it in my hand. "It's only$7.99...It's exactly what I want...They only have one!" I found myself rationalizing. Somehow, before the crib sheet found its way into my cart, I snapped out of it, reminded myself that I probably need to wait a while before I start decorating, and slowly walked away from the baby aisle.

I think about Ricky all of the time. I try to picture where I will be when we get the call from Gladney that they have our referral. I find myself imagining what he will look like. I think about what the two of us will do to pass the time while Rob is working and the girls are at school. I wonder if he will love a blankie and pacifier like his sisters did. I guess at what his favorite books will be.

That's all I have for you. No news and some crazy ramblings from a woman who is not pregnant but is acting like it...